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today alone in house… after finished secondary-school-life, feel tat loneliness alwaz overwhelmed me. mayb bcoz after school, frenz will not alwaz been met, except u call them out.

i m now preparing my luggage, my luggage to china,  i will leave malaysia at the end of august, not sure yet abt the proper date. while preparing the luggage, i keep thinking of all those memories we had had together in secondary school, included memories wif fren, wif prefects, wif xue mei. em, i think i m also packing the memories too. i will bring along some photos to china, to those who haven’t noe yet, i will study at china sun yat-sen university abt pharmacy course, and the orientation date may be 3th of September. juz left some time staying in malaysia, abt 4 weeks, frenz keep contact ya.

Continue the topic, yeah, i still miss my secondary school, so weird, when i was studying at there, i wished to finished as soon as possible, but while u really finished, u find out that it is totally different with ur imagination future. nvm, sudah nearly a year, should be adapt liao. i will start a new life, nope, new school life when i reach another country. can anyone who read through the article till here give me some comment and suggestion abt wat should i bring to there? i scared i would 4get to bring sth. alt my list aready so long……

recently, quite down.

feel tat really confused. sometimes feel tat spoke frankly will make urself easily been misunderstood. being too innocent also will be misunderstood by others. for an example, juz try to speak up ur own feelings or opinion or just kidding, ppl will try to misunderstood ur words by their way. finally, the meaning u wanted to express is totally different with wat others heard. it makes me feel tat speaking out ur own feelings are really difficult. it is a truth tat: a good fren no need ur explanation bcoz they noe u, they understand how u think and who u r, they will accept u as being urself. but to an ordinary fren, no matter how good ur explanation is, wat they do is try their best to misunderstood u by their own way. i think i really noe how to differentiate a good fren and an ordinary fren. the one tat noes u, no need to talk, she noes.

maybe my oppinion is totally different with others, i found tat wat i expect  i can’t get it. i expect a fren to be truely cherish u, for an example, she initiative connect and keep in touch with u, not only u be the initiative one, but both side. really sad tat sometimes ur thought can’t even match with those u thought they are ur best fren. feel spechless. maybe someone who truely cherish u will try their best to keep on contact with u. confused…. what is the meaning of frenz? only put in the heart? y can’t they speak out their feelings and appreciate to u? i still remember a sentence: maybe someone love u in their way, not the way u want but it doesn’t mean that they dun love u. God bless.

after finish my secondary school-life, found tat frenz are "distributed" along the world. so far but so close too. it depends on how often u miss them and how often they contact with u. really miss those time we had been together in the secondary school. so dian dian fei fei, so colourful. not sure whether when we can "re-experience" these days again.

take care all of my frenz. miss and love ya.